insecure

do you know the feeling when you see pretty girls and you start feeling bad about yourself? 

book

i love being a character in a book called LIFE. just like any cliche i read in books, i tripped and fell down to Earth. like a knight, i fight the biggest enemy, myself and i am winning the truce, even better, the war. love comes along the way, i get hurt and the scars sometimes magically appear and disappear in time. one day, when the ink finishes on the last alphabet and when the right time comes, i will sail myself to a never ending world. 

flowers

*cut the rope and i still am there hanging, by a thread of faith *. Ya Allah, in this horrendous storm that i am passing through, please never let go of my Iman and faith. Please protect the ones that i love and please stay them away from any harm. I know this is too much to ask considering I am nothing but a speck, even worse that that, but please listen to my prayers oh Allah because Allah knows best. 

ruby

* you don't see me, you only see a body *. sometimes, to me, life is like a rubix cube. no matter how you scramble it, at the end, you'll get it back to the colors. it takes time to solve it, but when when you're good at solving it, you're the BEAST. when you know the exact reason why do you have to live, you'll be just fine. ship of difficulties might sail on the way, nonetheless, i am grateful i am getting a clearer picture now about life, Alhamdulillah. 

apology

* if there's any more room in your heart, don't save it for me, save it for my apology *. giving and taking an apology is hard, especially for the giving part. * sorry *, one word that changes everything, one word that soothes the heart, one word that puts out the fire, yet just one word every mouth hates to spill. if there's anything wrong that i've done to anyone in the past, present or will do in the future, i would want to state my apology here from the bottom of my heart for the lives i've destroyed, the hearts i've shattered, the smiles i've killed. i am nothing but just a weak human being who is prone to wrong-doings, just like everyone else. 

till silence do us apart.

* what's your biggest fear?- fear of Him, The Creator *. it has been two circulations of the moon since i last updated. sinister smiles and fake giggles were clearly written on my face for the past few days. exhausted, asphyxiated, suffocated i was and still am. i don't want to choke myself but i just had to sometimes. 

a day at the ice-cream societe

*name one thing that you do a lot in your life? - i say spending my time not knowing what i want to do in my life - *. as clearly written on the title, yes, i spent 8 hours out of 24 on 1st January of 2012 in an ice-cream shop. reasons? i work there and i love my job as well. meeting weird and obnoxious people, sigh, spices in my working chapter. nonetheless, i became stronger and tougher because of these people. thank you dear weird and annoying customers for your constant blatant comments. i'm gonna have to learn to appreciate little things from now on because they trigger something majestic in the future. no pain no gain, that's what i should always keep in my mind.