extremist

Salam;

 so, yesterday, i went out with friends from school for a movie.

i don't know what was wrong with me,

but as much as i felt happy,

a little jolt of concern stabbed me. i looked at everyone and they were enjoying themselves. 

it got me thinking for a moment,

is this the kind of fun that human should indulged themselves with? 

words of wisdom

i don't think i remember most of the words i used to know.
and if you do too then its okay,
as long as you have the word * ALLAH * tattooed on your mind.
every bad thing shall pass.
InsyaAllah. :)

here comes the bride

wedding ( an event that usually hates my presence )

frankly, i don't like attending wedding receptions, but the little girl inside me would love to have my own little wedding someday.

i think i have passed the pre-adolescent limit now to be talking about this. lol. 

i don't ask for much, i just want a very closed and quiet wedding attended by family and close friends. 

truth to be told, i don't mind getting married at young age. i am sure that most of the girls nowadays go for careers and paychecks before settling down, even i would say yes to that too before i say yes to a man.

but who knows, anything can happen right. :) 

bouquet for funeral

it has always been the silent tears that hurts the most. 

the lost fugitive

Salam;
it has been weeks since my last post. ( please don't get mad )
anyhow, a lot of things had happened to me over this period of time and i can't be more grateful to Allah for this.
i've lost everyone i love, yes, EVERYONE within a blink of an eye. i was lost, angry, lonely and you know, sad. but it got me thinking, why would the Mighty Lord ever give someone a problem and take something away if it isn't for a good reason? 
indeed, God is great. over these mourning period, i've learned something bad about myself. i came to know what  was wrong in me. if none of these things had happened, i would still be the horrible kid. 
i grew stronger and maybe i still am sad, but i could not be more happier and grateful on the other side because i have finally chained the little monster in me. :)
" If Allah wants to do good to somebody, He
 afflicts him with trials. " (Sahih Bukhari Vol. 7, Book 70, #548)

black sheep

its kind of funny the fact that i've been always been a black sheep at any second or any point i go. 

the click

Salam;
its 3 in the morning and i still don't have any sign of going to snore and for sure, i am not astonished by this fact. :)
i'm too old for this, really, or i have grown out of it.
anyhow,
i just realized how BORING my blog is because its filled with sad words, well, most of them. 
i am starting to feel bad about it.
but i don't think i have any reader, so, i guess its okay to let it be this way. lol.
the reason why i don't really update about my life and everything is mainly because i don't really have anything interesting at all to tell you. i know a lot of people have amazing stories on how they fight aliens, gossips, you know, stuffs like that and blog about it. 
;;; love exists because of Him, thank you Allah. ;;;

claudius

i was at my aunt's since yesterday,
and today,
my cousins and i decided to kill time at the mall. ( big mistake )
i ATE too much! lol
i went to a bookstore,
and at classics,
i saw something. ( HAMLET BY WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE )
i went cuckoo for a moment and grabbed myself a copy. 
i learn that sometimes big mistakes trigger to a-quite-happy-ending afterward. 
i don't know if its real, but, just be positive i suppose. :)

doubt

maybe you're right.
maybe i over-think.
its kind of ironic that people don't see the world like the way i see it.
a tree is just a tree.
a book is just a book.
a character is just a character.
maybe i need to go out more often and find the solutions.
or maybe i should just stay home and live.

average superstar

salam;.
i just finished completing the upu form and i have chosen to major in english out of all the courses.
i know there are a lot of kids and especially girls who'll probably choose pre-medic, pharmacy, nursing and whatnot, but not english. 
it makes me laugh a bit, but seriously, i ain't taking TESL and getting ended up teaching english at high school. i hope so.
i am planning on learning literature and there i go again, the thought of having a gun on my head and just about pull the trigger, since i have to find some ridiculous words from the dictionary. lol.
i enjoy learning ancient minds and cultures.
i think maybe that is why i have chosen english.