some days.

some days, you just accidentally fall for no reasons,
some days, you just cry because you want to,
some days, you just want to scream till your throat bleed,
some days, you just want to kill whoever stands in your way,
some days, you just want to die because you're tired,
some days, you just wish that you were small again,
BUT YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT,
when you fall, that makes you realize that you can't always be up there because pain makes you stronger,
you can cry all you want because at some point, you deserve it and i can give you a shoulder to cry on,
you can scream till your throat bleed because sometimes words don't always get easy to be narrated beautifully, 
you can push away whoever stands in your way, with intelligence and patience,
dying is the last stop, the journey and the sweat throughout life are worth fighting for and i'll always be there for you,
its always good to be small again, but growing up gives you the power to accomplish the little kid's dreams. 
:)

class party!

i know its pretty late to write about it but as i reminisce, i can't help myself but to smile whenever i think about my senior class party last year. it was a blast. AWESOME! the setting was at a hotel, outdoor, at night, with friends, by the pool. it was truly a night to remember. we couldn't care less about the food as long as the family was there. there was music too. i remembered this one time when ellisya played "bulletproof love" when she connected her ipod to the speaker and i screamed hysterically. that was my favorite song. we all talked, giggled, took A LOT of photos and danced that night. the boys in my class showed their long hidden talents as they spread their wings on the dancefloor to bassfhunter. shuffle, break dance, tecktonik, you just name it. lol.

hello fascination

Salam, :) long story cut short, i didn't get into Matriks nor UPU. i've done the appealing thing and now i am waiting for my second chance. so, as for now, i am gonna have to get my lazy butt back to school and start my form 6 for a moment until i get the second placement, InsyaAllah. i guess its not my time yet to shine i suppose. whatever it is, i feel great because i had gone through one HELL of a year last year and now i am getting my fractured bones back together. i can't be more grateful than that. i could've stuck somewhere, but i chose to get out of it, and now, Alhamdulillah, i am doing much better now. it does feel really weird to go back to one place you never wanted to go again, but hey, maybe its time for me to fix the broken machine back. who knows right. :)

love and relationship

so, i am pretty much positive that love is different than relationship.
you can have a relationship without love.
you can love without having any relationship.
people always get these two things wrong.
i for sure am not going to talk about my love life.
but i'd like to make certain things CLEAR here.
1) if you love someone, you'd have his name mentioned in your prayers every single time.
2) if you love someone, you'd wait for him.
3) if you love someone, you'd accept the differences.
4) if you love someone, you'd be with him through storms and clear.
5) if you love someone, you'd be happy being yourself around him.
6) if you love someone, you wont change anything about yourself, but you only would make things better.
7) if you love someone, you'd smile whenever you see things that remind you of him.
8) if you love someone, you wont say things that'll break his heart.
9) if you love someone, you'd give and take.
10) if you love someone, at certain point, you will learn to let certain things go.
:) 

six, seven, eight, nine

the black and white keys synchronize perfectly to the symphony i am playing,
they create notes that tingle my soul,
they dance as i force my fingers to run at high speed,
they know the arrival of the bumblebee,
the climax shan't be said,
i remember how the crowd cheers.

silver masquerade

Salam;
wow, it has been a while since i last updated.
i guess there's nothing much to be written and i don't want to fill my blog with rubbish. nobody cares in the end.
anyways, take care everyone.
much love. <3

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