anhedonic

there are a lot of things that i've missed so much in my life.
i miss
1) sleeping like a healthy person. 
2) running around and not being bothered with anything.
3) smiling.
4) being healthy.
5) having enough or over-supplied food in my stomach all the time. ( i used to be fat )
6) the time when my biggest problem was my homework.
7) pretending that i don't give a damn about anything.
8) going to chatrooms and having crappy random conversations because i was desperate finding some friends and someone to talk to. 
9) the part where i don't have to be sad anymore.