number one

you just need one sentence or word that will completely change every single aspect in your life. for me, the word for today is * disappointment *. it is true that i am always not as happy and blablablabla, but never i was disappointed, until today. i don't want to go through the whole story but the main point is, i am really disappointed with some of my friends who are  being so insensitive. i am being realistic enough that i just don't want to take any drastic move or hurt the others since they treat me like crap because i believe that what goes around comes around. suddenly, i feel like everyone around me is conspiring a plot to kill me or to hate me, or to kill me ( okay, i am weird like that ). i just can't trust anyone anymore i guess which is really devastating. maybe on the other hand, i might as well have done something bad in the past and now i am getting the punishment from Allah. whatever it is, i'll try to look at the brightest side of everything and continue the journey.